Sunday, November 27, 2011

Winter is coming.

Tom's Journal.

I am thinking about buying another bike this Spring-- if we are still here on

Well, now I could kick myself for not having the stamina in the afternoon and evening to go to social functions-- just like that church 'Sing-a-thong' at a different  church tonight!!  Grrrrr!  I'm just not a night owl, but a farm raised kid who had to get up early to milk the cows and do chores on the farm, and that carried into the Army and later my life's work... but also retirement.  But the fact is:  FELLOWSHIP-- is what I really needed!  Oh boy... Well, I guess I will figure something out next time this stuff comes around...duh.  You know that a person's night time vision gets worse when you reach age 40, and maybe that was in the back of my mind too, and my younger brother already has cataracts in his eyes.  I never really got into the bar scene and now days I am not a big drinker anyway-- it hurts my stomach and gives me a head ache.         Seems like working/ and married folks don't need to go out at night too much, unless they work a late shift.  And it's been said that it's actually unnatural to work those night shifts... and why do we have a night and a day, biblically speaking?  

I just wanted to throw out another scripture I just ran across:  "Then said they unto him, What shall we do, that we might work the works of God?  29. Jesus answered and said unto them, This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent." ~John 6:28-29.  I cited this one because some 'Faiths' say that you must do "works" ALONG WITH BELIEF OF CHRIST -- to get to paradise--heaven, mainly... and that is NOT true!!  Jesus' death on the cross was total and completely sufficient to redeem us all and pay the price of all our sins-- lest some of us boast...  I could name other 'religions' who feel the need to ADD certain things to the bible as requirements for salvation, even as I DID one time, until I learned the Truth of the Bible, by personal study.  You see:  Just 'going to some church no more makes you a Christian--than standing in a garage makes you a car!!'  LOL!  And right now, in 2011, we are seeing a great invasion of New Age, paganism, and false teachers sneaking into the church, spreading their personal lies and agendas... and all the more reason why we need personal study of the scriptures, to know the truth and false doctrines.  And don't worry, there are poor schmucks like me who have the education and knowledge but seem to have their hands full of fighting so many demons of the flesh, etc., loneliness, deprivation, isolation, temptation, and the devil knows what strings to pull and what bottoms to push-- so I think that we are mostly all in the same boat, roughly speaking.  Frankly, I've got to ask myself sometimes, 'Where is MY joy and happiness?'  

Seems like my life had more meaning and purpose when Sharon was alive, and I was a 'man on a mission'- taking care of her-- trying to make her happy, etc.  And I don't think the answer is to "keep busy" or volunteerism either.  I have things to do and a life-- it's just that something is missing, and it's hard to break up a good 'team of horses.'  When I had my brother take care of my dog when I was in the hospital having knee surgery, there were other dogs that he bonded to and enjoyed playing with-- so when he came back home to me, when I sufficiently healed-- my Deuce boy actually 'pined' and 'mourned' for a week or so, because he missed his new 'dog friends,' and that's not uncommon.  I love and cherish my personal peace and quiet, but I also love other people and am a social person. I guess that some folks would prefer to be and live alone, but I am not that sort.  
I've got a feeling that this December will be pretty hectic and more folks will lose their jobs, with more depression, stress, suicides and poverty, and the holidays will produce many air heads chasing their tails and spending money that they don't have-- but isn't that the norm?  I will try to keep my mom in mind and visit her more in her new surroundings, now home, all alone and isolated, poor lady.  She is not poor economically, just alone.  I would never allow poverty to hurt my family-- unless they needed some 'tough love', and then only for a while, maybe!   Got to make a list of what to do, too... and who to see.  Winter is coming!  Are you all ready for the deep, slippery snow and ice??  


Q.  You’ve said, “The signs pointing to the End of the Age are appearing all around us.  This is not happening so that we can hunker down and prepare for the storm. It’s happening so we can begin making preparations for our departure. Whether it’s several months or several years is immaterial. The sooner we [...]
Why did God not judge Satan when he first sinned ? It wasn't man's sin. As a result of God not doing that Satan was allowed to temp mankind, who failed. Now multiplied millions will plunge into Hell. I do not understand. Thanks.

Comment from a good Vietnam Vet- Army buddy who has Agent Orange poisoning, etc,

That is one beautiful bike! The last time I rode a bike was just before I went to AIT and then over seas I was 18 and didn't worry about anything, now if I would ride one I would be affaird of tipping it over on me or doing something stupid like get ran over by a Mack Truck.....  But it sure would be fun if my memory is right.
Tom I have always got up around 6 or sunrise and early to bed even when I drove truck across country I would stop and sleep after midnight and get up at 6 when I had to stay off the road for another 2 hours so I understand what you are saying.   Now days its up and down because I can slip into depression where I can sleep all the time and feel like I never slept at all. 
Being a Christen doesn't mean I don't get depressed or that I don't stumble or does it make me a bad person, but the devile tells me over and over how bad and how many things I have done in my life that was againest God.  Give me a little bit of time when I'm depressed and I can allow the devile talk me out of the fact Jesus died on the cross for me because I am so bad.
Well its a lie, Oh yes I have done plenty of wrong things and still do but Jesus did die on the cross for my sins before, today and next week becaused he loves me and you and a big bunch more of people in this world.  He also knew that we will stumble but He gave us forgiveness and His Word that we can come to Him and repent of our sins.
I don't want this to sound simple because it isn't but it took me almost 50 years to really get it and untill I did I was miserable, thinking how unworthy I am which I still am but God sent His Son for me because He loves me.  Don't let the deviel or anyone else that you are anything but a man who has his ups and downs who feels, crys, laughts and thinks about everything. 
Tom I think I'm worn out because I'm forgetting where I was, just want to tell you that you are in my prayers and you will in God's time find what He has for you.  Its  to say and do but I'm not because its been a long day and I have allot more of stuff to say and do or do and stuff or say oooooh I think I'll just go to bed Bro, God Bless you  and I'll be back,  Jerry
One last thing I love hot food with peppers.....

A Mexican Viewpoint.

Tom's Journal.

I think that there are some good  points in the email sent to me by a Marine Vet, Kurt,  today down below.  People THINK they are working hard for a dream, when they may already have most of what they want already!!  The wisdom is:  Understanding it.

But I want to share a few things I learned today about Thanksgiving and wondering if we may only THINK or Wonder/ Worry if we going to heaven or have true salvation.  1st John 5:12-13, "He that hath the Son hath life;  and he that hath not the Son of God hath not life.  2. These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of he Son of God;  that ye may KNOW  that ye have eternal life,  and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God."  The main point is that sometimes we all feel blue, depressed and down in spirit because for all we try-- we still stumble, sin, fall short of the target, fail and SIN EVERY DAY!  We feel like filthy rags so unworthy to even dream of heaven.  But God forgives real Christians who believe and confess Jesus as their personal Lord and Savior!!  Got to remember that and keep on trucking!   I learned a few nuggets at church today, but i also learned some very important things for my cleaning lady too-- a sister in Christ, and friend.   

One of my problems is that I have such a vivid memory and so blessed that I remember minute details from long ago in living color!  But that can also be a curse... in that I remember bad scenes of combat in RVN, etc., nightmares, too many sins, hardships, trials, etc., and have to use a powerful form of 'mind control' that I have taught others, to a certain degree, and "imaging" -- healing herbs, massage, breathing, fasting, etc.  The many loves of the past only make me hurt more so-- now when I am alone-- and yet, there are so many married folks suffering in horrible, abusive relationships who also go without the basics in life-- especially love, joy and peace.  I thrive on good relationships and do so well, but I also know how to survive on my own well, physically.  

I went to the North side of Kenosha after church to buy some great Burritos with hot peppers on the side and hot sauce to bring home and ate only 2 which filled me up with a cold beverage.  That  really helped me feel good.

I suppose I spend too much time at the computer these days and thought about going to another church tonight for some singing and fellowship, but it seems like I am driving all the time!   I am a 'morning person' even though I am retired and just run out of steam by the afternoon.  I been having trouble sleeping lately but know how to cure that too.  One of the big reasons that I, personally enjoy going to our country church is because of the fellowship with people of 'like Faith' -- learning "new" things, or those not brought to mind often, and I like to support the church  and a few missions with my modest offerings, like the Bible Tract stuff by Mark Smith, of WVCY Christian Radio, 107.7 FM-Milwaukee.  The VA hospitals are my fertile territory to hand them out [the small interesting Tracts] discreetly and most folks enjoy getting them!  

I suppose now, even at the advanced age of 62, I am now looking for some type of energy stuff [but not that drink stuff] to get more zip in my gait and more spark, I guess.  But then, if I always wake up at 0600, how much  do  I really need to do after working so hard my whole life and getting beat up from a few accidents and mishaps, almost croaking myself?  Why don't we apply this following story about the Mexican in the article below?  Smile-- God loves you!  

Too, I guess that I have had a 'crisis of conscience' lately and shocked a few friends with some 'off the wall questions and statements' that were out of character-- I 'think out loud' sometimes....  but hope that the Spirit will keep me walking the narrow and cramped road.  Thank you for your help and understanding, Anita.  Help me to wake up and walk straight and stop looking for love in all the wrong places.... lol.  Seems like most of those females on the dating web sites don't know if they are shot, stabbed or snake bit...LOL!  They honestly DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY ARE LOOKING FOR and it's just entertainment for them-- as they play games with other people's feelings.  In the mean time, I will just be content.



A Mexican viewpoint
A boat docked in a tiny Mexican fishing village.
A tourist complimented the local fishermen on the quality of their fish and asked
how long it took him to catch them.
"Not very long." they answered in unison.
"Why didn't you stay out longer and catch more?"
The fishermen explained that their small catches were
sufficient to meet their needs and those of their families.
"But what do you do with the rest of your time?"
"We sleep late, fish a little, play with our children,
and take siestas with our wives..
In the evenings, we go into the village to see our friends,
have a few drinks, play the guitar, and sing a few songs.
We have a full life."
The tourist interrupted,
I have an MBA from Harvard and I can help you!
You should start by fishing longer every day.
You can then sell the extra fish you catch.
With the extra revenue, you can buy a bigger boat."
"And after that?"
"With the extra money the larger boat will bring,
you can buy a second one and a third one
and so on until you have an entire fleet of trawlers.
Instead of selling your fish to a middle man,
you can then negotiate directly with the processing plants
and maybe even open your own plant. You can then leave this little village and move to Mexico City , Los Angeles , or even New York City !

From there you can direct your huge new enterprise."
"How long would that take?"
"Twenty, perhaps twenty-five years." replied the tourist.
"And after that?"
"Afterwards? Well my friend, that's when it gets really interesting, "
answered the tourist, laughing. "When your business gets really big,
you can start buying and selling stocks and make millions!"
"Millions? Really? And after that?" asked the fishermen.
"After that you'll be able to retire,
live in a tiny village near the coast,
sleep late, play with your children,
catch a few fish, take a siesta with your wife
and spend your evenings drinking and enjoying your friends."
"With all due respect sir, but that's exactly what we are doing now.
So what's the point wasting twenty-five years?" asked the Mexicans.

And the moral of this story is:

Know where you're going in life....
you may already be there