Monday, February 16, 2009

Still hanging in there. Thank you for your support.

Tom's Journal.

'Christians' Have Trusted In Caesar

John Lofton and Pastor David Whitney / The American View Radio:

Call me Mr. Softy, or just a big dumb ass... but my wife came over this morning as I asked her and we amicably went to the 'bank' to delete her from my accounts. I am at least trying to be cordial and less judgmental so that I don't upset her more. The dog jumped up and down like a juvenile when she knocked at the back door. He loves her too. I had her drive me to where I thought my attorney office WAS, but he moved, and then I even took her out for Chinese lunch and then gave her some $ cash. She told me about how she is doing at the 'safe house' in Racine, and how there are two very young girls who have NO cooking or cleaning skills.. lol, and how the older ones are trying to teach them how to cook and learn. Too often now days, kids are raising kids -- to their detriment and no wonder we have a 50-50 divorce rate in America! Well, you take God out of the schools, courts, White House, and family, plus TV, and what do you expect?? I am sure that my wife is better 'equip t' with many skills learned from her tenure with me, etc. No one can say that I am not a good teacher... even if I am demanding and rough, but I get offended if someone is not paying attention. I am NOT supposed to know anything about that 'safe house' but she still trusts me enough that I would never harm or frighten anyone. So let it suffice that she is doing well and is safe. In the mean while, I am constantly having Panic Attacks, shortness of breath, some chest pains, anxiety and high blood pressure. People love to hurt those they 'love' I guess. I may see my VA doctor again for some help, perhaps. I just wish I were not so sensitive. Taxes are coming up soon too and that is a very stressful time for me. I will probably come out even again, but I have to pay in to the State before I get back from the Feds.

I tried to reason with her that I am willing to seek counseling or at least see some people thru the VA system to work on my own problems-- but she has issues to work on too. Break ups are seldom one-sided from my experience and study. We are both getting a sabbatical, retreat, cooling off time to look at things more objectively, which is good, IMHO. I needed some time to think too. Proverbs 21:19 says, "It is better to dwell in the wilderness, than with a contentious and an angry wife." And for the man/ husband [me], Proverbs 21:23 says, "Whoso keepeth his mouth and his tongue keepeth his soul from troubles." I firmly believe that my own tongue is my BIGGEST enemy. It can slice and dice better than any of my razor sharp knives, and what woe I bring onto my own head and heart in the process! I told my wife this morning on the way back home that-- if I ever wanted another relationship with a lady, I would FIRST HAVE TO CHANGE MY ATTITUDE and bad manners. But after so much experience with women-- in the back of my mind, I can easily predict how they think and act... so it's like, 'I am waiting for the other shoes to fall.' That is why so many men would prefer to stay single, shack up, or just 'fool around' without any commitment. Well, I went to the 'old school' and I didn't fare much better...but God sees our actions and He is our real Judge. I wonder what would happen if I told the ladies that I had no income or health insurance.. LOL.

I love the book of Proverbs so much, that I just 'landed' on another one that could well apply to my wife-- and many other greedy people: Proverbs 21:6 says, "The getting of treasures by a lying tongue is a vanity tossed to and fro of them that seek death." However, pure truth in this day and age are pretty well extinct, or has no meaning. Ask any Congressman. I also think that the Dems and the Prez have a warped view of what the TRUTH is. How many people actually READ the new 'pork bill' before they climbed onto the wagon of super spending ?? If the economy some how gets better-- it WON'T be because of the greedy spending pork bill ! Oh well...

Let me thank all my friends and readers for their support and love when I really needed it. I am just a poor old man who has emotion, valleys and mountains to contend with, and my life has been so full of action with every degree of emotion in the spectrum. Thank you all for joining me on my life's journey. I hope that I will get through this present storm of heart break and flee the devil's machinations and temptations. Maybe I can help you someday. Just email or call me:

Has anyone besides me [that watch the Glenn Beck news show on Fox News TV] know about the real possibility of Mexico collapsing or having a bloody civil war that could / will spill over in to the TEXAS, USA area?? I am disappointed that Liberal "News" Media doesn't mention that Phoenix, AZ has one of the highest rates of kidnapping in the WORLD! Don't worry folks, we will all be living in a 3rd World Country soon enough.

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Dirk said...

Bro. Tom,
Just dropping by to check on you. Sounds like you're holding your own so far. I'm praying for this to be overwith quickly so you can begin healing. There's really nothing else that can tie you in knots than something like this.


Lou said...

Tom, I'm sorry to read of your troubles, on top of your health problems. I have much sorrow with my son, but have been blessed with a strong marriage of 30 years. I'm glad you are not acting bitter or vengeful. That serves no purpose, and only eats at your own soul. Still, I know this is hard. I can tell by your writing you stay engaged in life and with the Lord. That will help.
I love Proverbs, my pastor said recently Proverbs are the "rules".
Sending you best wishes, keep your sights on the light at the end of the tunnel.